all this talk about jobs

yuck

david and i have been talking about the subject a lot lately

pretty much i have come to this conclusion...

what you do, or where you work does NOT define you as a person

we are employed by God to do His work, not to please men here on earth

it sickens me that we judge each other by job status, give me a frickin break

i don't know what the future holds for my career. i just know i love what i am doing now. being around children, families, and all that love. there is nothing better. i want to be different from every one else. i am blessed to have come this far, and i owe every thing to God. i was beginning to think i could never be good at anything-- just then He lifted me up. i am finding myself more and more through this journey.

my heart is overwhelmed with joy. almost one month until the wedding. david and i are continually growing closer to each other and to God. these past few months have been amazing. in counseling last week pastor judy asked me why i wanted to marry david... well the answer is very simple. we can accomplish great things together, more than we could ever do by ourselves. when i am weak he is strong, and when he is weak i am strong. we inspire each other to be better. both of us have a burning passion for ministry and it's amazing to see how God has already started using us. we are hungry.

lately i have been thinking about my calling. what is it? how will i know? I honestly believe that my calling is in the things that grieve me the most and where my passion lies. i am very aware that my calling at times can cause me to suffer, but the major role of that is to help build character. God is not just interested in me, he loves all of us so much that he will NOT let us be comfortable, we can not learn or grow without crisis. God already began the good work in me, he will never leave my side.